Wednesday, May 26, 2010
FAT ENOUGH FOR YUH!!
Now I'm the first one to say that I've gained back those five pounds I lost and then some, but what gives anyone the balls, nerve, gumption, cajonez, audacity to ask or say any of the following:
"Whoa, your tush is looking kinda big there, are you trying to compete with J. Lo?"
"OMG Miss, Is there something you're not telling us?"
This one asked while directly looking at my stomach.
"You know I love you right? But, that dress you had on at the shower, well,
it wasn't that flattering to your middle area."
"I love you no matter what size you are" - Hubby's attempt to make me feel better - FAILED!
I am so utterly, UGH about my weight. I can't even say the weight it's the eating! You know the joke: I'm on a seafood diet -> I eat everything I see! Well, that's been me lately. I'm so overwhelmed with work, students, home, bills, that I've been eating myself into a 10 pound weight gain. I'm finding all sorts of comfort in the foods I've been gorging myself on, and every time I go try on a new outfit, I find I can't fit into it either. (Mind you I just went shopping a few weeks ago!!)
Why do I do it when I know I am so anti-muffin top?! I just can't help myself. I have my BFFL's bridesmaid dress hanging up on my bedroom door as a reminder that I now have less than a month and a half to get this weight back off, not to mention, it's summer and I'd like to enjoy being my usual scantily dressed self. And now because of the excess baggage, I'm tired all the time. I don't want to do anything. I have no motivation to go anywhere. And even if I do go somewhere I'm wearing things that are so misshapen that not only do they hide the fat but they make me look like an umpa lumpa!
I've had enough! I went back to the gym after a 3 week hiatus and I joined Weight Watchers Online (did you know there's an app for that?!) This way I can track everything I'm doing. Of course, yesterday being the first day, I went wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over points. Today, much better. I'm cutting out juice for the next few weeks except with dinner and then only half a cup. Since we got Maddy the Wii I have to see if I can afford to get the Wii Fit for when hubby's at work and I can't get to the gym. Plus, I'm super excited that Zumba is coming to my Bally's and I've signed up for the class tomorrow. I also think that once school is over and the job stress is gone, I won't be as mentally exhausted by the end of every day!
NO MORE SNACKING! NO MORE SNACKING! NO MORE SNACKING!
If you know me, and love me, please help me in my quest to lose this weight!!