Wednesday, May 26, 2010


Now I'm the first one to say that I've gained back those five pounds I lost and then some, but what gives anyone the balls, nerve, gumption, cajonez, audacity to ask or say any of the following:
"Whoa, your tush is looking kinda big there, are you trying to compete with J. Lo?"
"OMG Miss, Is there something you're not telling us?"
This one asked while directly looking at my stomach.
"You know I love you right? But, that dress you had on at the shower, well,
it wasn't that flattering to your middle area."
"I love you no matter what size you are" - Hubby's attempt to make me feel better - FAILED!

I am so utterly, UGH about my weight. I can't even say the weight it's the eating! You know the joke: I'm on a seafood diet -> I eat everything I see! Well, that's been me lately. I'm so overwhelmed with work, students, home, bills, that I've been eating myself into a 10 pound weight gain. I'm finding all sorts of comfort in the foods I've been gorging myself on, and every time I go try on a new outfit, I find I can't fit into it either. (Mind you I just went shopping a few weeks ago!!)

Why do I do it when I know I am so anti-muffin top?! I just can't help myself. I have my BFFL's bridesmaid dress hanging up on my bedroom door as a reminder that I now have less than a month and a half to get this weight back off, not to mention, it's summer and I'd like to enjoy being my usual scantily dressed self. And now because of the excess baggage, I'm tired all the time. I don't want to do anything. I have no motivation to go anywhere. And even if I do go somewhere I'm wearing things that are so misshapen that not only do they hide the fat but they make me look like an umpa lumpa!

I've had enough! I went back to the gym after a 3 week hiatus and I joined Weight Watchers Online (did you know there's an app for that?!) This way I can track everything I'm doing. Of course, yesterday being the first day, I went wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over points. Today, much better. I'm cutting out juice for the next few weeks except with dinner and then only half a cup. Since we got Maddy the Wii I have to see if I can afford to get the Wii Fit for when hubby's at work and I can't get to the gym. Plus, I'm super excited that Zumba is coming to my Bally's and I've signed up for the class tomorrow. I also think that once school is over and the job stress is gone, I won't be as mentally exhausted by the end of every day!

If you know me, and love me, please help me in my quest to lose this weight!!


cuzzo said...

i joined ww online a little over 3 weeks ago and i am down 10 lbs and i still eat everything i like just in moderation...i also walk 3 miles a day outside and if i can't do that i do the treadmill inside. i am on a mission you better just listen....hahahah...seriously you can do it.

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Anonymous said...

Oh, my daughter from another mother. I feel your pain! First of all (and I know you won't believe me because I'm your MammaBon), you are STUNNING!! Secondly, I'm on a serious, SERIOUS diet, and I already feel so much better. I was feeling lousy for the past few months, so I know what you mean about feeling lethargic. I know how hard and unfair it is, but I'm here for you. When you want to eat, come up to my office. And for God's sake, stay away from Guidance on Bagel Friday.

Chocolate Mom aka Blupoetres said...

@Cuzzo - First loved your whack rhyme! 2nd Yay for us and WW online and double YAYAY for your 10lbs off!! Thanks, you know you still rock that "S" on your chest

@Mr Lonely -Thanks for stopping by and will check you out!

@MammaBon - Thanks as always!

My name is Alena said...

Oh no. Comfort foods are so evil lol I have this recent obsession with cheese and has caused me to go over the "recomended weight gain" by about 5lbs already :(
I have to start exercising ASAP after he's born! lol
You can deff. do it if you put your mind to it!

Anonymous said...

I just finished reading your last couple of postings and I had to write you. I am so with you in the weight loss/gain department. To think think I had the nerve to complain before I had kids. My stomach makes me want to vomit every time I look at it and I am still holding onto these 20 extra pounds. Yes, I said 20!! Actually I lied. I weighted myself at the gym and I have 19 to go. Before I had kids if I needed to lose weight I would eat lettuce and drink diet soda for 3 days and be fine. Those days are WAY over. I wonder how big I'd be if I was actually eating and drinking all the things I wanted too. LOL
I also wanted to tell you about Medifast. Everyone I know that has tried it and done it has lost weight. I know people who just do the shakes and one lean and green meal. There is also a girl at my job who just bought a month supply of the meals and looks great. She lost over 11 pounds in under 14 days. I have only tried the chocolate shakes and they were pretty good. I am not doing it now because I really need to get into the gym because it is a great stress reducer and just makes me feel better. I will be doing the shakes 2 weeks before my Dad's wedding in October. I hate the dress so I feel if I look extra good I won't mind it as much. lol It is kind of expensive but some health insurance companies will reimburse you if you have any kind of wellness rewards. The insurance company I work for gives you up to $300 a year for "wellness" products and another $300 for "wellness" activities.
Another thing I wanted to tell you about was Wii Fit. If you go on QVC they sell it and they have payment plans. They usually break it down to 4 easy payments. They charge no interest and just take the money out of your checking account every month. My friend was telling me about it. I used it once and didn't have a problem. Their prices are just about the same as in Walmart or Target.
Hope everything is well with the kids. They are getting so big!! Talk to you soon.