The Inevitable

Well, we've crunched the numbers, we've cut down on the shopping, hubby's put in extra extra overtime...but alas at the end of the day, it looks like I have to go back to work in September. I have cried so much this weekend, my head is killing me. The thing I'm going to miss more than words can explain are my morning seranades from 6am to 9am. My Linky Poo wakes us, snuggles up next to me for his morning nursing, and when he's done he sings. I put on Sesame Street and he chats and sings right along with them or he turns to me and kisses me and holds me face (sometimes he smacks, kicks and bites) but it's still our time that doesn't get duplicated any other time of the day. I don't want to lose that quality time or have some one...anyone...have those precious moments with him. Selfish? I don't care! I love me some Link!! And the idea of being surrounded again by pissy teenagers all day is sooooooo not appealling at this point in my life.

Don't know if I mentioned this but we made a little proposal to my mother for us to sell our house, move into her house in FL, hubby work one job while I stay home with the kids, and save a little money until she's ready to move her self. Do you know what she said, "Um, now I'm retired, I'm only staying in NY to help you guys with the kids. So while that's a great idea, if you move into my place, where the hell will I go?" GEEZ! So much for that idea! Which is what brought us back to plan B = Mommy goes back to work. This way Daddy can work just his night job, Nana will come over in the morning to help get Maddy on the bus, watch Linky so Daddy can sleep for a few hours when he gets in at 9:30am, and then Daddy will take over until Mommy gets home around 5:30-6 every evening. Not his ideal situation nor mine, considering he's going to be in charge of an infant alone for several hours for the first time in his entire life. But there are father's out there that do it every day, and had to learn just as he will what to do vs. what not to do.

Y'all need to pray for us...whew, it's about to be an interesting couple of months!